Pump It!

Wow... a lot has happened since I last posted. I've kind of been afraid to go into it, but I think I'm ready now. And I have homework that I'm trying to put off.

So, I think it was two days ago, maybe three? I pretty much broke down to Nicole. Everything that had been bothering me; everything I had bottled up inside. It's amazing to have all that off my chest. Her basic advice was to try and build up my confidence. I think the best way to do that is to lose weight, and start taking better care of myself. So far, I've eaten pretty healthy. I'm totally not cutting out candy entirely, but I definitely haven't been pigging out like I usually do. And let me tell you, that was a lot. So now after school, instead of having the chips, I'll have a banana or some almonds. Olivia is a good girl now. I also really need to start some sort of excersize regime. Nicole suggested taking walks or whatever but that would probably bore me. I don't like running. So I'm thinking, MAYBE, I might start going down to the Double Tree and working out there.

Speaking of running today, I did SO BAD. I got a 9:42 on 2 trails, and last week I got 9:00. Um, excuse me???

I don't really now how to describe my friends. I totally like all of them, but I feel so left out when I'm around all of them. Good with Chad, Ginny, Sam, all of them when it's just the two or three of us. At school I hardly ever talk to them at break or lunch. And every day I take out my iPod and just sit there, hoping that someone will be like, "Hey, Olivia, what's up? Are you okay?" Alas, no.

At lunch today I was sitting there and Max threw something at Will (this bothers me SO MUCH AND THEY ALWAYS DO IT), so I gave Max a super mean look and said, "Stop." And then, he freaking says to me, "Well, Will was doing it too." So I look at Will and say the same thing and he has the NERVE to go, "Well Max started it." They are so annoying!



((1 month, 1 week, 6 days till the concert))