Senses Fail

I never explained where the name 'Still Searching' comes from. It's an album (and also a song) by Senses Fail. It's probably one of the best put-together album I've ever seen/heard. It tells a story, which I love.

1. The Rapture- (Rapture means ecstatic joy or ecstasy. Think orgasm. Um, I looked it up once when I was thinking of a name for the blog.) It's the beginning of the tragedy; the start of his misery.
"I waited for the light to come
to change my life, to change my life
But I am blind, my faith is gone
I'm finding out the good book was wrong "
2. Bonecrusher- He's trying to drown everything out and forget it all with alcohol.
"Drink up, drink up, drink up the loneliness"
3. Sick or Sane (Fifty for a Twenty)- Is he sane, or is his nightmare coming true and he's really sick?
"Am I a little sick or a little sane?
'Cause I feel a little sick"
4. Can't Be Saved- He lost his [will to] love; he wants to get out of said nightmare.
"I'm stuck in a coma, stuck in a never-ending sleep.
And some day I will wake up and realize I made up everything."
5. Calling All Cars- He wants to be forgotten; wants people to get over him and face the fact that he's long gone.
"So will you scatter my ashes where they won't be found?
I kept my word when I swore that I would let you down
And now that I'm gone
Try to forget me and just move on"
6. Shark Attack- These shrinks and pills are not working for him.
"Lying on the couch and spilling all of my guts out
Walking out with nothing but a head full of self doubt
I take back every good thing that I ever said"
7. Still Searching- He knows he's changed, knows he's sick, he's lost control. The pills and the 'whitecoats' are his only friends.
"And oh my God, I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt
To feel at all"
8. To All the Crowded Rooms- I'm not too sure about this one... Possibly he's delirious or hysterical?
"My life is better than it ever was."
9. Lost and Found- My favorite song off this album. He's lost in a world full of nothingness. He can't get out, and no one can help him. He's going down.
"This island has become
An ocean and my boat's too small
The waves are crashing in
And I can't save this sinking ship

I sent out signal flares
But no one out there seems to care
Now the voice inside my head
Is the only thing that I have left" (Yeah, I had to do two verses)
10. Every Day is a Struggle- So much for last year.
"So Much for the past year,
I poured it down the drain with all the alcohol and pain I got from,
Your Eyes, Oh Your Eyes.
I’m burning out my bedside,
And I’m rotting out my insides slowly."
11. All the Best Cowboys Have Daddy Issues- His suicide. Jump off the building. Let's hear a toast for loneliness.
"A perfect sunset is sinking in the sky
I know my body is ready to fly
I start the countdown backwards from ten
When I reach one my family name will end

Falling down as windows pass I start to cry
And curse the day my parents laid
In a bed of hopelessness where love was made
Please mark my grave 'Unknown'"
12. Negative Space- Him falling. No lyrics, just negative space.
13. The Priest and the Matador- When he hits the ground. His last, dying moments.
"The ambulance is singing
As cops push back the crowd
I start to take my last breath
As blood pours out my mouth
The medics walk in my way
I think this could be it
I hear them start to state,
'The time of death is half past six.'"
The End.







So. That is where the name is from. The album, not the song. Please don't be so close-minded as to call it emo and freaky. It's art.