Dancing in the Dark

So, last time I wrote about my feelings about Connor (yeah, still there). I really really really times a hundred want to talk to him. I keep telling myself that next time I see him I'll smile and say hey or whatever. It's kind of harder than it sounds. Like today, after school, I was walking, and I saw him. I was thinking 'Say hi say hi say hi.' I get near him and literally take in a breath... and chicken out. Then I kick myself for a long time afterwords over-analizing what I could have done or said.
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So I was talking to Phil the other day and he was all being all nice and stuff and he asked me how I was, was anything wrong, the usual. I told him about how I feel like I help a lot of people and then everything is great for them, but then nothing great happens to me (which of course is me OVERREACTING and being SPOILED). Anyway, he consoled me. He besically said, "See, that's what I don't get. You help everyone you know, even people you barely know (like me). I know things haven't been going great for you now, but you have to trust me, something great will happen to you." Which, you know, I really needed.

Oh, and some totally awesome lyrics.
"You come over unannounced.
Silence broken by your voice in the dark.
I need you here tonight,
Just like the ocean needs the waves.

Fall around me now,
Like, stars that shine and brighten the way.
I need you here tonight,
Just like this night it needs the rain."
-The Ocean by Mae


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