L.G. Faud

(Let's get fucked up and die)

Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like the last time that I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and photographs,
I have learned to love the lie.

Let's get fucked up and die.
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That still shock and surprise.
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die.



Emo, right? Well, I've been pretty down lately. Nicole and I are cool again (for real), but I don't know why my mood is still so gloomy. Sometimes I just sit there thinking, "What am I doing here? What's the point of doing anything anymore?" School is almost unbearable. The classes suck, and frankly, the people aren't fantastic either.

And now I'm sick. I actually think my negative attitude kind of started it, or at least enabled it. Right now I really want to go to sleep, even though I slept for 13 hours last night and didn't go to school today. Life just kind of sucks.