Be My Unholy, My One And My Only

"This story is a complete waste of the eyesight that you will lose reading it." ;)

Ho hum, I don't know what to write about. Today was the pre-Christmas thing that everyone does; I basically just ate like twenty cookies and a decent amount of candy. My Secret Santa was Sam, and he got me a Boys Like Girls tee(!!!!!!!). Right now I'm glad we have break, but I know in like two days I'm going to want to go back to school. When I'm home all day, I just have too much time to think. And a lot of that thinking is about Connor.

Like over Thanksgiving break, when I deluded myself in believing I stood a chance with him? Yeah. I feel like such a freak.. I like him so much and he can barely remember my name. Stalker much? But yeah... every time I see him I get the butterflies and then upset that pretty much all I can do is say hi. I do want to spend more time around him, and yet I don't want to hang out with his friends at lunch (no offense). I want to hang out with Nicole when her group gets together, but at the same time I don't. I don't know.


To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Right in the middle,
I'm right in the middle
To be despised, to be loved.
To be dreamt of, to be sought.
On the inside I don't care
Be my unholy, my one and my only.
-One & Only by Timbaland (featuring Patrick Stump)