The Future Freaks Me Out

So, it's 11 PM on a Saturday night, what am I doing? Of course I'm on the computer. Of course I've been on it for 2 hours (in one sitting).

Nicole and Phil worked out their problems! Hoorah! Yeah, I was totally in the middle of all that. Sucky, huh? Oh well, I'm glad they've straightened everything out.

So we took our finals on Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. I think they were all pretty easy. EXCEPT BIO. The lab, my God, I messed up so much. The sugar was supposed to turn the yeast samples blue and yellow, but mine turned both of them blue. Ahh, whenever I think about it I get frustrated. So I'll stop. But if I don't get a good enough grade on it, I have a B in bio :/

The new semester starts this Wednesday. Do I want it to start? I don't know. I just want to like, have a list of everyone in my classes. That way I can decide if I am looking forward to it or not. And, as said before, I want Connor in at least one of my classes.

Alright, now that Phil and Nicole are cool again, I figure it's okay for me to pester Phil with my problems again. I told him tonight that I was thinking... What if I'm one of those girls that like, never gets a boyfriend? Or that I'll be 18, still in the same situation I'm in right now. And then I think he said being single is okay or something, and I responded by saying that it was easy for him to say, being attractive to a lot of girls. He told me that he knows about two guys that think I'm 'attractive.' One as a fact, or whatever. I asked him what he said about me and when. Phil said that he said: "'Olivia's really cute. I think she's like...adorable. She smiles so great! (somin like that) I like her, but I don't know if she likes me.'"
He told me that this person said it about a week or two ago. And of course, he can't tell me who said that. >.< Except for sure it's not Connor. (He also reassured me that this person 'is not that bad looking.' Alright?)

And you know what? My self esteem is so low that I pretty much don't believe him. That's right. I think he's flat out lying. Well, I guess I believe that HE believes it. I just don't. And my hope gets the better of me (once again) as I try to figure out who would tell him that. It's probably one of his friends, and I guess he's not bad looking.

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