Homesick At Space Camp

Soooo Sunday was the first softball game day! I'm happy, because I actually got to play. I played outfield, 2nd, and 3rd! I didn't do too bad either. Especially since I barely played second last season and never played third. And I got to bat and I did pretty well (I think). I hit a double! A real double, not a double created by other peoples' errors.

I missed the Chargers game though :( Happy that they won!

I watched the VMAs too. Fall Out Boy won for best group! Yay! They also performed Thnks Fr Th Mmrs and This Aint A Scene. Pretty tight. coughlovecough

School today was incredibly boring. Nothing ever happens. Homecoming is coming up too. I talked to Ginny about it, and I don't know what I'm going to do about a, err, date? I really don't think anyone will ask me anyways. If Chad does (which he won't, for sure), I'd probably say yes. And if someone else does, I'd have to spend a while thinking about it, depending on who it was. I sort of just want anyone to ask me, even if I say no, so at least I can say someone wanted to go with me.

Life is really dull to me right now. School is boring, home is boring. Nothing happens at school. Math and Bio are the worst. What is the point of high school? To get into college. What is the point of college? To get into medical school. The point of med school? To get a job, so you can work for the rest of your life. Fun. I'm not very school oriented (see also: unmotivated; listless).

Regular life is not that much better. I mean, softball is good, but I need a change of pace at least. It's been basically the same team for a year. Except now my three friends from the last team aren't playing this season. Savannah, Sarah, and Nicole.

I was thinking, what if I don't want to be a doctor? It might be kind of cool to be a sort of translator. I like learning different langauges; I like Spanish, at least. Do they have that kind of thing?

I could be a rager too. You know, someone who rages through life. Like Dirty. You know, Dacaydance? You sicken me.

I feel homesick for places I've never been. I miss hearts that I've never loved.
The Boy With the Thorn In His Side.